Friday, April 15, 2011
Well, about a week ago the gate fell. I was halfway home from my parents house and I could see my labs panicking in the back. I could tell they were laying down and the gates was on top of them but there was no way out. I kept saying loudly "it's okay Nay, it's okay Zeke, calm down!" I got to a four way stop, no one was there...so I climbed in the back seat and pulled it up. When I got home and shut the door...the gate fell again.
This became the nightmare. Nay was trying to squeeze up through the side of the gate to the back seat. She wouldn't fit. She was hurting herself in the process. Zeke was trying to climb over the back that was only half open.....he is not graceful and I just couldn't picture the jump ending well...but yet he is graceful and so he did. But....for a moment....I sat there begging both to stay calm. Trying to get Nay to stop hurting herself and Zeke to stay put. It was crazy....and once Zeke jumped out I was able to rescue Nay.
What a fiasco. I told my husband all about it and he did that loud boisterous laugh that people do when they think it's the funniest thing they ever heard. He did it several times and he said it was cause he could imagine it. (I admit...Zeke is a bit high maintenance and Nay, well she has her moments.) I was all upset over it because I panicked with them. My wallet was not going for a trip to the vet, nor my sanity.
I think sometimes in life we can feel like Nay and Zeke. How often do we get "trapped" and panic? God wants us to just be still sometimes so that He can be allowed to do his work. Sometimes when we struggle to solve things ourselves without seeking Him we find ourselves in a bigger mess than we were to begin with. (You know...like Nay trying to climb between the gate and the wall of the car..hurting herself in the process?)
I am learning a lot about being still. I find that there can be a lot of real peace in "waiting". Sometimes we think we are "waiting" when really we are sitting there, wiggling to get out and get moving, instead of being still. You know, that relaxation from head to toe where there is a sense of peace. Waiting without wiggling. Taking a deep breath and find joy in a moment of relaxing because really, the problem isn't yours anymore.