Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Today I am taking on the challenge of unwrapping Tuesdays. Finding the gifts in today. Sometimes I'm like NayNay and I get a bit OCD and don't enjoy the little things in life. Sometimes I'm like Zeke and I'm all in a hurry trying to soak everything up that I miss the little things.
Knowing I would unwrap Tuesday's gifts my mind has been like Zeke, running all over the place trying to find some awesome gift I could blog about. Hmm, air-conditioner frozen up (we like it cold even in winter), woke up with a headache, should've changed lanes earlier because now I'm making people mad trying to squeeze-in so I can turn right. Mornings are never smooth for this night owl.
In the end of all my messy thinking I just decide I am so grateful for THIS Christmas. I have had some hard winters. For some the Christmas season is when people push away all the hard things and forget about them, but some hard things you have to live every day. You worry that one bad day will lead to a worse day. Your worries consume you. Our home is affected by seasonal depression and Christmas does not allow us to push away this hard thing, we can't just forget about it for the sake of Christmas.
And then I think of families I know, those with cancer, those who have been fighting it for years, those who are just now fighting it. Those who are tired of fighting it.
Life is hard. And just when you think you are the "good girl" and deserving because you did "good things" you realize you are not deserving of anything. That God serves you life and as His child your response says what kind of child you are. This is not the life I planned but this is the life God has given me. He knew I could find the gifts in it, He knew I could have the joy. For some reason, this Christmas I am seeing His gifts more than I usually do. It is not something I can point at or even list, but it is a joy that quietly rests within.
So today, when I un-wrap Tuesday, I don't see anything I can hold in my hand, but I am reminded of Who can hold me in His hand, and I find JOY in tuesday and everyday.
(You can also unwrap tuesdays with me, visit Chatting At the Sky with Emily Freeman)