Wednesday, February 6, 2013
NayNay has always been grey around the muzzle. Since the day we picked her up from the shelter. We were told she was two that fall day in 2004. We seriously doubted it with all that grey but the way she acts at "maybe eleven" makes us believe she would've very well been two. She still bounces off the walls when she gets to playing.
Now she's grey around the eyes....the grey on her muzzle has grown out a bit. The grey doesn't bother me since she's pretty much always been grey-- it's the stiffness that bothers me. How she gets up and stretches after a long lay-- and yet she walks with stiff hind legs across the room. She doesn't seem bothered by it but I notice. I think we're blessed. Usually labs show it earlier in life with all their hips and joint issues.
Nay is so little compared to Zeke. Almost half his size. When she lays in the bed she looks like a little bear cuddled up in the blankets. Sometimes when I walk through the room only her eye balls follow me.
Sometimes I want to lay in my bed forever. The other night I came home from work and walked straight upstairs and got in bed. My mind had been playing tricks on me and it was affecting me mentally and physically. Like I was going to shut down and not move. Whether it be called an anxiety attack or just a pity party-- one thing was certain-- getting out of bed, stretching, and moving on was going to take initiative on my part.
And so I did-- get out of bed, stretched and moved on. Steve was sick and sleeping so it was dinner by myself. I made myself a healthy meal, a hot cup of tea...and watched two hours of Downton Abbey. Did it help? Well how could a cup of tea and Downton Abbey not help?
I think it was one of those things where I had made it difficult on myself. Though I am still a "young thirty-seven" year old...it seems as I age the battleground of the mind becomes more frequent. Not panicky over huge things-- but panicky over little. Why won't my computer work? How will I ever retire? I shouldn't be eating these chocolate chips!!! (BTW....I grabbed a few chocolate chips as I just typed that)
And so the "day to day grind" is now inflicted with the battlefield of my mind. What do I need? I need a supplement! I pop NayNay a supplement to help her each day....stretch those stiff legs. But it takes her having it every day to get her through. I need a supplement.
When I was young I thought a Bible verse would always fix things....a prayer would sway my mind in a new direction. It isn't always that simple. It's not like aspirin-- take it when you have a headache only...it's more like a vitamin. You add it every day. Taking it once may not help immediately--- but a daily supplement will help. Sometimes it is just saying "My heart is fixed on Thee..." Psalm 57:7 A daily supplement of meditating on God's promises, God's love...and God ALONE.